The last few months have been full of reflection for me.
With all the moving and chaos I’ve found myself really trying to figure out what I want to be doing now that I’m settled for longer than 6 months. There are so many questions rolling around in my head that I don’t even know where to start: how do I want to spend my time, what all do I want to see while I’m on the west coast, who should I be investing in, what will my blog look like, will I get photography clients? I really should just make a list of all the questions and just see what’s next and what I hope to glean from this San Diego living experience.
The time Eddie and I have here will be full of so much joy and adventure and a lot of dang hardness. We will be going through a deployment, seeing all the beautiful places, being apart from family, being apart from each other, making new friends, dealing with disappointment, making adventure happen, going on hikes, being more active…it’s a lot of life coming all together. Yet my heart and mind have come to this place of peace where I wouldn’t have it any other way. I mean don’t get me wrong I’d love to have a “normal” dependable schedule for the two of us and not be far from family & friends, but this has been really really cool to thrive and struggle and grow through together.
Mulling over the question at hand I really do want to use this time to push myself to places I may be fearful of. I want to travel MORE and see all of these places even though I don’t know the coastline or anything. I want to meet new people and invest in them and get to know their stories. I want to push myself to loose this weight I’ve gained and even go further – maybe even 30lbs before age 30?! I would love to get back to a healthy and thriving place with Jesus where I feel full and connected and overflowing to others. I want to connect with my family even with the mile and time difference. I want to dig deeper into my marriage and continue to strengthen it and figure it out and learn how to be husband and wife. Learning to love myself in a healthy, positive, and lasting way would be the cherry on top. I REALLY want to just PUSH.
Right now I have the fire.
Sitting here on a Friday morning typing this out there I have that insatiable hunger in my gut to just make it happen and cross everything off the list. My eyes are clear and my heart is willing; but I know that all days won’t be like this – there will come days that require a little or a lot of effort to make these things happen. So, my tribe, what are YOU wanting to push yourself forward to? Tell me your hopes and dreams and lets chase after them together!
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