15 DC | Looking Ahead.

What are you most looking forward to in the next six months? . . .Well let’s see that means August, September, October, December, January, & February. Wow, in six months it’s going to be February 2013?!?! When the crap did that happen??Oy’vey{it was just pointed out to me that i skipped november…yes, this should tell you how tired i am…and that i don’t always proof read my posts…or it should tell you that i’m just incompetent, ha! }I guess i’m looking forward to change.  
pinned here. If you know me at all, you probably just halted in your tracks and got slapped by the reality of my words. Let me explain, normally i am one that despises change. I don’t like it, it makes me nervous, i like structure and habits…i like organization. Change has always come with negative connotations in my life and so i’ve never really appreciated or understood the “good side” of change. I’m coming to realize that when change happens it doesn’t mean that your life has to be flipped upside down. Change could mean painting a room, cutting your hair,  or re-doing your schedule. None of those things are bad or even slightly terrifying, yet i never really equated them to change. I’ve always tied change to death, moving, broken hearts, etc. Dramatic right? Yes, i’m known to take things to the extreme. I’m learning to appreciate the small changes. Continual progress on my home, deepening friendships, going on vacations, starting a new year, having a more positive outlook, all of these things are tied to the beautiful side of change. I feel that i’m on the edge of a cliff and a huge amount of change is going to be heading my way here soon. I’m not sure what that means, or in what areas (hey it could mean some celebrity decides to give me oodles of money to re-do my home. Ha, a girl can dream) but i know i need to embrace this season and welcome it. I need to put my full trust in the Lord and know that i will not be given anything that He has not equipped me to handle, i’m not going to be thrown into the fire without knowing how to put it out.

 pinned here.The truth is i’ve been afraid for a long time. Afraid of what will happen next, of which rug will be pulled out from under me, afraid of myself. I’m tired of being afraid. Aren’t you?What are you fearful of? What have you not changed because you’re worried of the outcome? What risk have you left undone because you’re not sure if it’s worth the sacrifice? I’m not going to embrace fear any longer. I will not allow it to be my comfort zone. .  .  .So yes, i will embrace these next six months and actually look forward to whatever the Lord decides to bless me with. Whether that blessing causes me to be in continual praise for His glory, or the blessing causes me to dig deeper and seek Him out in a time of struggle. .   .   .Blessings are blessings people, it doesn’t matter if they are good or bad; it just means we don’t always understand the context of the blessing. .   .   .What about you? What are you most looking forward to in the next 6 months?