As mentioned in my last post the next month or so will be looking a little different around here.
I’ve been feeling this pressure to have all the pretty posts and projects and curated images up on my blog / social media and it’s really put me in a creative rut. I’ve got SO MUCH happening in the next few months that I just can’t seem to get it all together. So instead I’m going to start following some writing prompts mixed in with some other drafted content and just start sharing it on this space. I hope you enjoy the small seasonal change
Q. How are you feeling today?
I’m currently sitting at my desk in the bedroom office surrounded by a huge mess and sipping on liquorice and peppermint tea (seriously, it’s the best tasting tea ever and I’ve converted so many people who hate liquorice including myself). I’m forcing myself to not turn on the TV and have Charmed playing in the background (The OG) while I work and actually focus on this blog post before moving on to editing photos and answering a ton of emails.
This morning was actually a really great morning.
I woke up, feeling energized (thanks daylight savings!) and jumped in the car to head for a training hike for our up-coming 5-peak challenge. The hike was a short one (it took us about 40 minutes to get to the top) but it was a killer climb and even some slippage on the way down with all the loose gravel but it felt great! I then ran into an issue with a couch I had ordered from World Market for our sunroom back in Charleston and it just kind of threw my whole day off. Yet, I’m here and I’m writing and it’s time to peel things back and get to the nitty gritty.
So, how am I feeling. . .
. . .well, I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed.
I mentioned earlier that the next few months are going to be a whirlwind so I guess I can start there. This week alone Eddie and I are hoping to tackle cleaning out the garage, packing up the garage, going through the house, packing up a lot of the things, going to Harry Potter world (with tickets we bought back in June), spending some time together, going on a hike or two, and more packing. He actually has the week off so that will be super helpful with getting everything together. This month is going to be spent going through our house, purging all the things we no longer need/use/want and really culling it down to the basics, well as basics as we can get. Putting things into a storage unit here in San Diego and just getting prepared for the move. In December we will be driving back across the country to Charleston with a little U-haul attached and tobi in the car and we only have a short window of leave time to make it happen before Eddie has to go back to California. This will be my 5th move in under 2 years and as I said to Eddie the other night, I’m just over it.
With Eddie deploying next year we both know this is the right move for our family and I’ll be able to stay in our home, with Maria, and have a good support system while he is gone. I’ll be in my home town, getting a new job, and staying busy while he is gone. Yet it’s still really hard to start all over, and that may not make sense to everyone. I really enjoy California, not all of it, but the community I’ve got here has been so refreshing and encouraging and it’s a group of military spouses who actually GET what I’m going through. They understand the mood swings, the loneliness, the becoming a leech to your husband when he is home and dropping off the face of the earth. We’re super active and moving and always on the go and it’s helped the time to pass so quickly. While I’m really excited about going home to my family and friends – those relationships have changed in the almost 2 years I’ve been gone. Some friendships are strained or no longer exist, some are re-building, some have just changed and I know that i’m going to have to be intentional in building a strong support system.
I am really excited about moving into our house.
I didn’t really announce it but we bought a house in December of last year so that’s where I’ll be moving into and slowly redecorating. The best part about the house is that it is about 1.2 miles from my brother & his wife’s home (the house I lived in when I was in Charleston). I’m having to tell myself to not go overboard with all the house planning and things I want to do but it’s a little hard to keep it in check sometimes. We also have some other HUGE things on the back burner that if come to fruition would be incredible and I would share all about it on the blog.
I’m avoiding cleaning out my clothes and making a list of all of the “must pack” things that I want to take for sure with me to Charleston. We won’t know 100% if Charleston is Eddie’s next duty station for a little bit so I’m kind of left feeling in this constant limbo of feeling super unsure of what all to take with me and what to leave in a storage unit. Needless to say when I start to think about it too much THAT is when the overwhelming feelings start creeping in.
So, that’s where I’m at right now.
All over the place really and while that has become my new normal it still is so foreign for me to just accept.
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How are YOU feeling today?