Happy Happy Monday!
I’m really excited this week is FINALLY here. I’ll get to see Eddie and I couldn’t be more excited. I’m doing my best to not focus on the negative of anything (length of visit is one of them) but instead to find that joy in the moments I do have. Perspective y’all, I’m constantly learning and being RE-taught how important it is to have but how needed it is to make each day a little easier.
Q | What good are you doing?
OOPHF.
So my gut reaction to this is: nothing.
I don’t feel that I’m doing much good in those tangible measurable standards. I’m not volunteering anywhere, regularly attending church, being incredibly kind to everyone, etc. I still, very much, feel as if I’m walking in a stagnant season until Eddie is permanently back home. It’s almost like I don’t know what to do with myself now that part of my whole has been taken away – I feel one half of what I should be if that makes sense.
BUT THEN…
…I needed to stop and remeasure what I find to be good. Maybe instead of looking at the tangible I need to broaden my perspective (!!) of what is good and how I’m working in that. I think I am doing alright in my relationships with friends. I am trying to have those good and meaningful conversations with them. I am staying (for the most part) on top of keeping the house cleaned and am purging items / painting furniture & rooms and making our house more of a home. I am helping with situations when friends need me. Mainly I am learning that good is, at least for me in this season, meant to be investing in others vs only myself.
This post was a gut check for me.
I need to be more mindful of the good I am, or am not, doing. There are many areas for improvement and for my own benefit I want to list some of them here. This little list will hopefully serve as something I can reflect on throughout my week to re-set my focus on good vs struggle.
- Spend more time with Jesus.
- Touch base with friends on more meaningful topics vs just how is your day.
- Encourage and Pray for Eddie more.
- Speak with kindness and encouragement to others.
- Look for the hurting and give a hand.
- Look into serving opportunities.
So tell me friends, what good do you find yourself doing. <3
