This past weekend I found myself sitting at a table with a good friend and talking all the things about about life. The good stuff, the hard stuff, the ugly stuff…I mean really the nitty gritty deep conversations that bring my heart such joy. I remember we somehow got on the topic of my blog/photography and I shared with her that I’ve felt super uninspired recently…just completely lacking creativity. I found myself having to ask the big ol’ WHY am I feeling uninspired.
Truth be told y’all I’ve been feeling this way for over a year.
I don’t know what to write about and I often find myself staring at a blank draft for a few minutes and hovering over the keyboard and then turning it all off and walking away. I feel like my voice may not matter anymore…or maybe it’s more of people won’t like what I have to say if I get back to those real-life posts. Even more so it may be that I’m a little scared that no one will read, maybe a little more than scared. I find myself feeling irrelevant in this new world of blogging. I find myself constantly comparing my numbers and content with other bloggers. I feel this ridiculous pressure to make content that goes straight to pinterest, to “find my niche” and create content focused on that. I get the message that if I’m not making $xxx then I’m not worth it or if my numbers don’t grow then I have nothing to add. It’s been so frustrating to write posts for THOSE things/reasons.
My friend Cara said that she actually really is inspired and comforted when bloggers share the real…and I whole heartily agree with her. There is something comforting to be reminded we aren’t alone in our struggle or in our joyous times.
I then had to ask myself the hard question; are you wanting to keep this monetized or write for you without caring. I think it’s a little bit of both. I want to work with brands that I really believe in and support and will make a little side-hustle income. I also really want this to be a reflection of my life, a little time line of the years as I walk through them.
I want to share life happenings, travel adventures, home inspiration, things I’m loving, etc. I want this to REALLY be a lifestyle blog, not just a check in. I’m wanting to crank out more content with gratitude and reflection.
So I guess that’s me just letting you know where I am.
I’m hoping to post more regularly and in posting more to share a glimpse about the day to day aspects of life, grateful lists, things I’m loving while walking through Target (or wherever but we all love target haha). I want to be open to sharing some photography again and maybe even dive back into a fiction series. Honestly, I want to re-claim the type of blog this was when I started on this space 10 years ago (dang though I’ve been online blogging for well over 15 years).
I desire authentic real connections and conversations with you.
I want comment conversations and links back to your blogs so I can go over and dive into your life.
I’m craving that and I hope you are too.
Welcome to the new journey of A Loved Life.
