I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.”
He holds my heart so tenderly and loves me so fiercely, and i have been forever changed by him.
I’ve been thinking so much about wedding vows recently – that my heart is constantly full and my eyes on the verge of weepiness (completely cheesy and i don’t even care). I’ve found myself making mental notes of all that i love about Eddie and all the joy and goodness he brings out of me. Even more so i’ve found myself becoming more and more thankful to the Lord for having Eddie walk into my life.
I started scrolling through our engagement pictures and it reminded me of these screenshots i had on my phone. I am not sure where i found it (probably tumblr) but the quote above just resonated so deeply within me and i felt like their home would currently be found in this post.
When some read those words – they may feel like they don’t fit within a post sharing engagement photos.
The words are laced with some pain and it doesn’t scream rainbows and roses.
And yet, that is what makes me appreciate them even more.
Love isn’t all about the good.
Love is about growing together, through joys and sorrows, and continuing to make the choice to be committed and within pursuit of one another.
Our story wasn’t an easy one. The beginning was tinged with frustration and pain and lots of confusing tears. There were many nights when i just couldn’t understand why this man loved me so fiercely; and yet here we are under 50 days from becoming one.
I find myself staring at these pictures, drooling over them really (i mean come on, carrie did excellent right?!) and just being flooded with thankfulness.
I’m thankful Eddie loves Jesus.
I’m thankful we laugh together like 12 year olds.
I’m thankful he calms my fear.
I’m thankful we encourage and push one another.
I’m thankful to just walk through life with him.
And i’m truly thankful that we take the good with the bad and it is all more than enough.