i was working through the she reads truth devotional this morning (sermon on the mount day 11) when God moved in a mighty way.
to give a little background on my heart at the moment in regards to this – i’ve been struggling with comparison. comparing my heart to others, my body to magazines, my home to pinterest, my cleaning style to the professionals, etc. i continually found myself not measuring up and just digging this self-loathing hole that was really hard to climb out of.
so God spoke, on something that was near and dear to me – comparison, idolatry (loving things/people/ideas/dreams , or holding other opinions higher than God).
so here are my thoughts, copied from my journal, raw and without editing.
sometimes we just need to pull the cover off and be real with each other.
i often find myself “checking” my heart.
why do i want a pretty house?
why do i want to spend money on decorations?
why do i care about that?
i need to make sure it isn’t simply for apperances. that i do these things with a purpose and without falling into greed with money. i do not want to envy other people’s things. i do not want to carry that weight of constantly comparing;. Yet i find myself sucked into the pinterest and blog cycle of “bla bla bla – i want more, more pretty, more things, more crap…”
deep down – when i remove all of the flesh desires – i want my home to be shared.
i want it to be a place where i invite people to come over, to share, to take a break and relax. i want it to be full of laughter, and sharing hearts, and community. THAT is what i want. not just “nice things to impress people” – but a welcoming home that people want to come to.
i want my house to be a home.
which then started me dreaming of fall.
bonfires, lights, outdoor games with family, friends, and neighbors.
a night for each.
a moment in time, in my home dedicated to bless those who mean something to me.
people God has placed in my life and environment.
my perspective on my house has changed.
it isn’t about doing 1,000 DIYs.
it isn’t about having the perfect paint color or matching frames.
it isn’t about perfection.
it’s about inviting others in, and making a house my home.
so i’m challenged – and i’m starting to dream of nights full of laughter and conversation…and i’m so happy about it.
what is God teaching you lately?
how is He changing your perspective?