back in may I shared some progress on my weight loss journey.
and since may…I’ve been maintaining.
and I’m frustrated by it.
really I am.
I know I shouldn’t be, because honestly maintaining is something I need to learn.
maintaining is a good thing – a healthy thing.
but I still have 20lbs to go until my goal weight.
and I don’t want to be stuck maintaining!
ok let me reel back and explain why I’m frustrated.
you see, this has become a lifestyle change for me.
I have gotten to a place where I enjoy working out (weird right?)
I like feeling stronger, healthier, and more ABLE.
there is just something awesome about busting out some power squats.
I like weight lifting, I enjoy sweat pouring down my back and into my eyes, I actually don’t mind burpees (I know, who am I?!).
well…over a month ago (probably 6 weeks?) I had a HORRIBLE muscle spasm in my right calf. this wasn’t your every day charlie horse (I get those too)…this lasted like 2 1/2 minutes, blinding pain, almost passed out, and couldn’t walk even close to normal for three days after. after doing some research it looked like I had a calf strain. so I waited, three weeks, with light exercise and low impact (swimming). then one Friday I had enough so I did a workout in my garage, lots of jumping jacks, and that night I had a charlie horse in my left leg.
since then my calf’s would get tense here and there, and I have been terrified to over work them.
I’ve done everything – lots of water, taking magnesium supplements, bananas out of the wazoo, etc.
I finally had enough and went to a doctor (around two weeks ago).
she did a full blood panel, urine analysis, etc.
everything came out fine.
no diabetes, no dehydration, everything was great.
so why are my legs still tense? I asked in full on frustration.
because you’ve overworked them she replied. take it easy for a while.
my mind started racing, “I’m going to gain it all back, I don’t want to loose what I’ve worked hard for, I don’t want to take steps back in my cardio/strength gains”
I was so completely overwhelmed.
^^ that probably makes me sound like a drama queen.
and to a degree, you’re right…total drama queen moment.
I’m still struggling with the fact that I’ve overworked my body.
that I’ve put too much pressure on it (because I want to be stronger).
so this is about swallowing pride, and accepting that I can’t do everything.
and that I have to rest.
most importantly this is showing me to try other types of exercise.
instead of my HIIT workouts (that consist of a lot of jumping jacks, jump squats, burpees etc) I have been doing blogilates and boy is it killer. Cassey kicks my butt. I have been boxing on sunday nights for three hours and have been doing lots of stretches.
this isn’t what I’m used to…my “normal routine”
but I think this is good.
it’s good progress.
because I’m learning to target other muscle groups and how to stay healthy through an injury.
even though I get frustrated, I know it is for the best.
that is just where I am right now.
being 100% honest in saying that having an injury blows.
being 100% honest in saying that I’ve learned I was complacent in my workout routine, and I really did need to switch it up. so here’s to looking more on the positive side of things!
what about you?
where are you at in your healthy life journey?
have you had to find a new way to work through an injury before?
share your stories.
share your heart!