how are you living lately?
are you living with purpose or fear?
if i’m being honest, lately i’ve been living in fear.
fear of the unknown, fear of sickness, fear of rejection, fear of failure.
currently my roommate is down with the stomach bug – and i’m fearful.
something so silly to be afraid of – throwing up – and yet here i sit letting my fear multiply and hoping i don’t “get it”.
and i know these are the moments that matter.
the moments where i can choose to let the fear encompass me, completely eat me a live, or hand it over to the One who casts out fear.
i can choose to believe that in sickness and health, in poverty or wealth, in sanity or uncertainty – that my God is a God who is consistent, compassionate, omniscient, and truly merciful.
these moments matter because they are the small things, the daily things, that i can choose to cloud my judgement and pull me away from the oneness with Christ – or i can tell them no.
yes, my roommate is sick, and yes that feeds my anxiety, but NO i do not have to let it control the day.
i do not have to let it control my week.
or my month.
or my life.
and it isn’t just with sickness, it’s with everything – every fear and stress.
God hasn’t created me with a spirit of fear.
He has created me to be a daughter of the King.
He has beckoned me to live in the sunshine…
…to swim in the sea and drink the wild air.
He has called me to face the winds and bear the brunt of any storm.
and He stands with me, always, without fail.